No particular reason for title angst, just feeling very angry for no reason at all
-must be hormones
. After a nice relaxing weekend spent doing things with/for other people, I decided not to answer the phone at all today and only wish that I had a big enough house to pretend that I couldn’t hear the doorbell as well.
Will finish writing up about the recent hols (with many photos) soon but really wanted to get this week up and running blog wise. I don’t know how long this will last but I have decided to change my life priorities a bit. I seem to spend a large amount of my time pleasing people and ‘being there’ to no real benefit to myself or the Peas-sometimes completely the opposite in fact. I field long phone calls from friends in distress(quite often I am guilty of being the friend in distress -waves at Lin
), end up going out to clubs I dislike when no-one will ever come to places I like with me and often my children end up with no bedtime story/a rushed lunch/a missed trip out/less help when they ask for it because I am busy at the door/on the phone with people who cannot often understand that I am, in fact, very busy and that educating my children is a full-time job and I’m actually a human being trying to get through life with minimum disruption and sanity.
Hee Hee, that reads as minimum disruption and minimum sanity too, so I think I’ll leave it

The holiday really helped me clear my head. I’d always thought that I was stressed because I was home-edding 3 kids by myself but, in reality, having been in the same room as them between the hours of 8am and midnight with only an hour off, I have realised that it’s OTHER PEOPLE who bring stress to my life (that and the messy house maybe
). I love all my friends and family but there are so many other people (lets call them aquaintances instead of pains in the ***) who really have no place in my life and yet are in it.
So, I’m no longer answering the phone during the day (if it’s important there is the answering machine), I’m spending a lot more time on myself (as I will lose weight before my birthday), I’m going to start getting up earlier and if any of the friends whose birthday evenings out to cra**y clubs I have attended don’t come out with me for my birthday because they don’t like where I’m going, they can all sod off if they think I’m coming out with them again 
So, apparently this week I’m not going to be a people person 
Right, mini rant over. Today’s been pretty good all round. We all got up early and breakfasted before Ambleside -poetry, a chapter of Understood Betsy and a bible story today- and Pea 1 and SweetP finished up their ‘normals’ quickly and then settled to watch schools tv. Pea 2 really hasn’t been herself today, all she’s wanted is cuddles and I’m just too grumpy to give many at the mo. SweetP practised her new violin before lunch as well and Pea 1 worked some more on the rainforest village that she’s making. I was so glad to find a book to engage her attention as all she is usually interested in is animals, this has broaded to be the Jungle too and she had suggested the mini topic of study that we’re on at the mo-Australia- so all is good with her education wise. Oh and this evening she requested a project on Asia so I’m quite excited about that, though we’re doing Egypt first as I’d promised SweetP and we have loads of cool activities for it so it should be good.
Pea 2 continued to just loiter about and was apparently writing in her diary upstairs, which she was keen to show me, so all was not lost education wise for the morning. I was very good and did lots of housework-well washing, hoovering and preparing for this afternoon.
After lunch, I presented the Peas with the remaining pages of their Australian mini workbooks that I had finally managed to print off from Enchanted learning(ta Lin
) after many ink cartridge mishaps
and they settled to work through them to the sounds of the Aussie cd that I’d picked up at the library (how organised is that?). Many thanks to Jo for letting us blow her didgeridoo the other day (no sniggering at the back) and for lending us a fab art magazine with a cool aboriginal picture inside to replicate. When the Peas had finished, we trooped upstairs to look at an Aussie museum collection online (MUST move computer downstairs as buying laptop idea has gone to the dogs with having to buy new car
) and then started work on our Aboriginal pictures. Each of the Peas drifted off at points to let their pics dry and have a go on the computer-number skills cd-rom so I can tick maths off for today
.
I had plans to get the pics finished today but the layer paint effect took longer than we thought and so they’ll have to be finished tomorrow. Finished today with Blue Peter, a five second visit from the girl next door (why knock and ask to come in if you’re going out in less than 5 mins? Every time the door goes, the dog goes nuts and it’s very annoying Grr
) and the usual Girls brigade run for Pea 1. We walked the dog down tonight as it wasn’t raining and I met another GB mum on the way down so we had a nice chat.
Home for a lovely long cuddle with SweetP and Pea 2, after they had fed all the pets and we’d had a nice dance to 80’s movie songs on the telly and then picked up Pea 1 and bedded everyone down with a chapter of northern lights. I’m actually quite disliking Lyra as a main character as she smokes, swears, fights, causes criminal damage and is generally rude but I suppose it makes a change to all the good, helpful, nice children in the Ambleside stories
.